Bad Karma et al

Not been blogging since some time due to some issues, which I m going to go in depth explore, dissect and discuss.. no that’s on my personal blog, this is still the impersonal one.

So anyways being the Aquarian I am, I have strong beliefs and disbeliefs in the extraordinary and generally beliefs go along with most of the weirdness out there. And then there was karma. Life always seems a little more fair when the concept of Karma is attached to all actions and deliberate inactions.

I am just going to go ahead and throw some stuff I have heard, admired, stuff that made some sense to me, so read on and don’t look for coherent thoughts (u shd know better by now). My mom always said, you create your own heaven and hell on earth. One of our pundits preached one day, we spend more time wishing bad for people rather than praying for some good for us. Its always I wish I get paid more than him/her rather than I get paid more period. Success is always measured in comparison; check out any Forbes list, or any list period.

There are tones of saying like what goes around comes around, u reap what u sow, everything happens for a reason and so on. I have seriously started questioning the logic behind these thoughts. Is it really true? Who is keeping score, besides the supposedly wronged party? Is it just some kind of quick fix to reassure us about the happy endings and general goodness in the grand scheme of things?

In the end I really don’t know if any of this bad karma, good karma means anything. Yes I do feel some high when I completely go out of the way to help someone and I do feel uncomfortable when I use that very apparent loophole. Besides that these thoughts do give a feeling of some overall justice, thereby reaffirming faith in another one of those phrases in the end everything comes together. Until then all we can do is invest some faith in our good karma and hope that everything does come together in the end..

Cable TV’s another world, rescue me..

I m still quite confused and don’t really know if I want to blog, and I hate admitting but work has the upper hand nowadays. So I watched californication yesterday, the show is more on the obvious word in there, mixed with drugs, writers block, hell-A theme. I have been watching basic channels forever and cable feels like the parental lock is finally gone. It’s a whole new world, not one I particularly like though. I mean sure every show is smart, funny in dark way, keeps you on your toes, but my question is when did TV become work.

Seriously all these super intelligent shows zap my energy all the time. My ego never lets me not get them and understanding and following them is work, which is not even satisfying all the time. I mean look at my blog heading, nothing smart funny there, my energy and wit has all been drained by the cable tv’s idiotic shows being intelligent.

Apart from the obvious IQ factor, these shows have absolutely no moral codes. Either its all about vanity a la nip tuck, root for a serial murderer sociopath dexter and now try to find hidden meaning with jingoistic hank doing anyone in sight on californication. Gone are the days of laughing at friends that seems like a kiddie show now.

I have decided to take a break from all this madness and meditate, actually I plan to go back to my original love, reading, started Life of Pi. Literature never seemed so clean, calming and without any hidden or in your face u know what innuendos..

Morbid Curiosity

I m seriously considering going to a shrink, for one thing it sounds kinda fancy, secondly all bigshots have shrinks, plus I wanna see the purported “couch” and I m developing some serious doubts about thyself.

Ok first of all (this first, second thing I m doing it a lot, reminds me of lettermen, lettermen weird name huh wonder if he got it in kindergarten, but then it should be letterboy, man do u see how my brain wanders). So no first, seconds, what I was saying in that previous haze was that I was never a weirdo as a kid, in-fact I m very squeamish almost hypochondriac kind of person (talk abt impersonal blogs). Never into dissecting animals, collecting bugs, ok I have killed lots of insects on the way but that was just for survival.

So what has started bothering me lately is my weird fascination with really morbid shows and movies. Again I m not a saw, hostel gore violence fan, but then again I did like Sweeney Todd. Have read some Stephen King, saw in the mouth of madness, the other day. Then I stumbled on dexter, I tried watching rome, and the tudors but I m not just a history person and I cannot care less for politics. Now Dexter is not very gripping, not all the time, but its smart really dark funny show and as I mentioned in the heading, I have this morbid curiosity. The whole dexter titles is provocative, the way they show person having breakfast is more like a controlled massacre, kinda like how it was in American psycho, seemed like blood drops but was actually fancy food.

How dexter keeps thinking in his head about how “normal” people behave. There is this part when they show people cracking open lobsters with hammers, and he thinks normal people are very violent. But then again, this show has received a lot of critical acclaim, so I just think I m into watching high quality shows and if you have not watched it yet maybe you should check it out.. As for the shrink part, I saw in treatment (on podcast while working out, I do get out of the house too) if its even remotely similar I guess I m bored of therapy already..