You live and learn, at any rate you live..

February second week already, talk about time flying. I started thinking about quality of life. I have lived a good number of years already and have formed quite a few opinions, viewed life from different colored goggles, stood at crossroads at different points of time and many times just slept through, hoping to wake up when ice age would have begun or gotten over..

So that got me thinking, what would define a qualititative life. How and when would I know I have lived enough and fruitfully. What will define this enough, the final peak, that final frontier. Lately I have asked many people this question. How do Everest climbers know this is the peak? What I have seen of mountains is that, they are always in a range, how would anybody know this is the peak and not that other point farther away.

Similarly how would I know in my life I have achieved my peak spiritually, personally, professionally? Like mountains keep growing, life keeps moving the more we explore, the more there is to do. There is no limit physically, mentally or emotionally, you can always push yourself further, do masters, do phd, do post doc then do more research. How and when would I know I have seen enough, lived enough, lead a high quality life.

I really don’t know, I suppose I need some more living and exploring to answer this question. This much lifetime has still not gotten me there yet. Ending with quote from Douglas Adams after a long time” He felt that his whole life was some kind of dream and he sometimes wondered whose it was and whether they were enjoying it.”

Resonant music for soul

Back by popular demand, can you believe that I still can’t, but yea 2-3 people bugged me quite some to update my ramblings and who is not flattered by that.

So this is my Birthday week (Thank you! If you wanna send gifts email me, I will send my address) and I have been quite upbeat lately. Couple of reasons for that, have been sleeping really well (touchwood), listening to a lot of music. Music is definitely a mood lifter. So that made me think about music.. Music to ears..

Music to me might be noise to others, then again sometimes there’s no accounting for taste. That made me think about religion actually prayer or praying, when we pray we essentially are pleasing or at least trying to attain pleasant experience for all our senses, bright light for vision, incense for fragrant smell and finally bells and singing for music to ears, not to forget prasad to finally appease taste buds. So praying is nothing but heightening of all senses to achieve that state of living completely.

But I wanted to talk about sounds in particular, either be praying in a group or be in rock concert, its finally about achieving that harmonious unison. In high school I used to have experiments with some water tube and strung wires, with a tong we would find the highest and lowest resonant frequency, (I might be way off base here so pardon my ignorance), so I am sure as humans we must have our own highs and lows, and cause we are the same species it might be in some similar range.

So here I quote an example from wiki about finding that perfect frequency in a playground swing. When pushing someone in a swing, pushes that are timed with the correct interval between them (the resonance frequency), will make the swing go higher and higher (maximum amplitude), while attempting to push the swing at a faster or slower tempo will result in much smaller arcs. If only we could find our resonant frequency and achieve that perfect state. How will it be like, maybe we will finally discover what our physical, mental and emotional bodies are actually capable of and much much more..

Transcend body, mind and time

So here I am sitting after my grueling absolutely cruel yesterday evenings workout. I went ahead and pushed myself beyond space time compendium (I know it does not make sense but I always wanted to use that phrase) and it does kind of make sense..

Well anyways so I wanted to talk about spirituality and how our bodies are just like vessels. I so want to leave this vessel for some healing and elevate to some higher pleasanter plane maybe Hawaiian kind of not that I am complaining about SoCal weather.
Digressing again! On that note I read something about how you can detect if you are ADHD but I got pretty bored so did not bother reading the whole thing, I suppose the test works, but back to spirituality.

Talking about spirituality the best asana in yoga is shavasan not only because you get to lie down after the whole gymnastic but also cause its an asana at the same time which everyone can perform.. This is so not going anywhere..

Starting afresh, I think I will do that in my next post. So appreciate your patience with my digressional ramblings who said you needed a drink for that, you just need an audience.. So like the black screen at the Soprano’s finale but in my defense I was not building up any monumental suspense for the past 8 seasons. Will just leave at that..

And the New Year begins…

Every year I start with one thought only, this has got to be the year, that one awesomely fantastic year when everything shall happen. When eons past, I will look back and say yes this was that year that changed the course of my life. Sadly I caught flue on 31st night. Seems like last year did not wanna see me go all dry eyed (I am noticing my very marvinish tendencies but I solemnly swear to turn into Zaphod this year).

So to assure myself about this marvelous year I went ahead and read my horoscope on all possible websites. And yea I realized all of them have some hidden agenda against me, I mean I know in my gut this is the year so no amount of how rat(according to the Chinese calendar) this year they claim will be I am going to march forward.

Now that I have almost battled the flue off with just some Tylenol PM (which I would gladly take otherwise too), almost cleaned up my room (as per my New Year resolution), almost contacted all my long lost friends (another resolution) and even cooked finally (broke my New Year resolution of not cooking this year), I have a good feeling about this year.

To top it all I even reclaimed my pen (long story) and my to do list is prosperous again. It has stopped raining in SoCal and the mighty bright sun is shining again. 2008 is going fantastic so far and yea I am still having a good feeling about it(notice how each paragraph ends with optimism, awesome year yay!!!).

And so it died..

So I started my day all groggy and stumbling around. Finally found him alive and kicking defiantly giving me all the reasons to finally wake up. Fresh and whizzing like the early morning sun. And slowly I started waking up. Noticing the beautiful bright day out there.
But suddenly it started sputtering, and I just did not have a good feeling about all this. Then slight stretches of complete nothings and I knew in my heart this is it. So I held it in my hand felt the pulse, the constant resonating undying pulse. Finally it stopped. And so right there in the middle of beautiful bright day it died in my hand.. Darn! I gotto get new batteries for my electric toothbrush..

Searching for Patterns

So I was watching a beautiful mind, intruging movie, but this post is not about that, its about what it got me thinking. Patterns.. everything around us is a pattern. In fact we have this tendency to find patterns in lfe behavioral, seasonal, regional... Patterns, trends, take language for instance we took some random shapes and assigned a meaning to their different combination and permutations.

Everything in life is a pattern, or else we make sure its a pattern, or we search for a pattern. Patterns are beautiful, they lend a kind of symmetry. Its a nature thing, trees, plants, flowers everything has a certain symmetry to it. At the basic level everything has the same pattern when we come down to it atoms, molecules, cells.

Why is there this need for searching patterns. I believe once we can tag a pattern we kind of know the meaning, it is predictable to certain level thereafter. Therefore it gives us a sense of security in knowing.. Cause we are always insecure with things we dont know and cannot predict.

But every discovery, invention, serendipity, accident requires to step out of the comfortable life of predictable patterns and look for new ones to give meaning and sense of knowing to the unknown anamolies and deduce new pattens

How jaded are we exactly..

As a kid born into this world we are like, white canvases waiting for that splash of color. Somewhere down the line this becomes more of a mish mash of contradictions, difficulties, clashes in ideologies, loss of that creative sparkle and what not. So eventually we condition ourselves into detaching our mind. So many times when something disturbing happens its not as if we are there but a hovering self of ours analyzing the scene from far above, secretly watching how people react, secretly hoping that no one catches our secret eye. It is definitely something we have accomplished from the naive what’s that days to was what days..

Watching gore and not wincing is a proud victory, I’ve seen better.. I’ve seen worse.. Maybe that’s the reason why we have developed this need to live on the edge to experience those roller coaster of emotion which otherwise are invisible in our daily existence. After all someone very smart coined ignorance is bliss. Then there was living in denial makes life much more easier to handle rather than take decisions and face consequences everyday in n out.

So creating a protective bubble and numbing emotions is that the path to evolution now. Is that how our evolved selves will relate with everyone?